In the last few months, I have not been the best at posting what I am living through. The reasons being that being in an MBA program is extremely difficult and hectic so as much as I want to post every little experience, I just can’t. I wanted to take the time to post some of my favorite travel moments that occurred in 2018 starting with Cabo San Lucas, Mexico
Often times I find that we make these new years resolutions and we never actually revisit them after January. I wanted to look at what I wrote down as my New Years resolution for 2018 and see if I was able to stick with some of what I wrote down. This is not only a means of holding myself accountable but also a means of encouraging myself to stick on the path that I am on and work harder at things that I wrote down. So without further ado, lets get into it!
- No more self silencing – This was something that was directed towards one person in my life who use to make me feel really bad about expressing myself. He was constantly criticizing me and making it seem as though everything that came out of my mouth was WRONG or STUPID (which was really funny because he literally was a person that had not one pot to piss in). This is what caused me to self silence as a means to not offend this person. I never had this issue with anyone else. Long story short, it was HIM not ME, and my life has been way better ever since we have broken ties. So I do not self silence and I guess I technically never really did.
- No More Comparing – Sadly, this again ties into #1. This person made me feel so crappy about myself that I was CONSTANTLY comparing myself to other women. I got rid of his negativity and began comparing myself WAY LESS.
- Self Preservation – I think that this year I have done a better job of self preservation but I definitely can do better. One great thing that happened to me in the last quarter of the year was that I began drinking way less and started being a little bit more conscience and aware of what I was putting in my body. I also tried to be aware of what I was watching and listening to, because as you may or may not know, all of that can really have an affect on your everyday life. I also began going to church on a weekly basis and utilized the word as a means of mental renewal.
- Using Social Media Less – I think that I had spurts of when I was using it less, but definitely not where I want to be. If you know anything, then you should know that social media is a tool that can really kill ones spirit.
- No complaining, Positive Outlooks Only – I have gotten way better at this! I try to be more aware of what I am saying and how I am thinking in general. This has allowed me to be less depressed and really push through the hard times.
- Be more prepared – Last year I wrote this because school was a real struggle for me and I felt as though I was lacking, but in reality I am not this ill prepared person.
- Work Harder – This is something that everyone can try to better at year over year. Work harder than your hardest! I did do that this past year, and I plan on doing it again in 2019!
I remember when I turned 25, I was so sad. I cried and cried thinking that I was getting so old, I was unmarried and I was super miserable in the relationship I was in.
Each year that passed after that, the feeling somewhat stayed the same. A feeling of “oh Gosh, I’m getting older, what do I do now”.
But as my 30th drew near, something clicked in me and the usual feeling of sadness did not come. Rather, As my birthday approached I was filled with excitement and appreciation to see this age. The last few months I have been on an appreciation kick. Appreciating every last thing I could think of from big things such as being in an MBA program, to small things like being able to move all my toes and fingers. This appreciation didn’t allow me to feel any sense of sadness or anxiety of being 30, rather I was filled with joy that God allowed me to be on this earth this long.
I must say, I love the thought of being in my 30s and leaving all the junk and baggage of my 20s behind. I am now older, calmer, smarter, stronger….better. And that my friends is something worth being happy for!
I am a helper. If you are in my life and I rock with you, I’m going to do all I can to help you. I believe helping others is especially important for those in the black community because if we don’t do it, who will?
But what happens when you continue to help someone and they continue to mess up the opportunities that you have opened for them? This is a place in which I am right now.
I struggle letting people go and just faltering, especially when I know what they can do to turn things around. But when I overextend myself only to have them mess up again it can be an extremely disappointing, frustrating, and distressing to me.
You know that old saying, “you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink”,that’s the exact sentiment that I feel. For this person I have literally given a massive amount to fully transform their life and yet they still found a way to completely mess it up. What do I do now as this person opens up to me about their troubles? Let them fall extremely hard this time or do what I’ve been doing the last few years and help…AGAIN?
In a way to ensure that I don’t put myself in a bad space I have decided to try to help this person one last time and take a massively different approach. Take on a less hands on and more of a coaching approach. I am not here to physically do things for this person anymore, I am here to guide them and offer advice when they ask. I am here to give them literature and passages that will help them head in the right direction. It is now up to them to choose to stay on the path of always ruining things, or finally deciding to be responsible. I can no longer utilize my contacts and my personal resources to help. All I can do now is watch and pray for them and offer kind words to keep them encouraged. Although my first instinct was to do what I always do and overextend myself to help, this time I will just sit back and allow them to figure things out for themself. Hopefully this new strategy works.
-With Love Kim-
I just wanted to post some pictures of Chicago that I’ve taken this far. And yes all photo creds go to me lol!
This city is so beautifully constructed it’s somewhat magical!
I moved to Chicago May 27, and I have been adjusting to the dynamics of this new city.
I moved here knowing one person, and not really knowing much about Chicago outside of what Ive seen in the news. But nonetheless I was excited about this new adventure and how I would adjust.
The last time I moved to a new city where I only knew one person, I was miserable. Mostly due to the space I was in during that time period. I was 24, and in a bad space. Like many in their early 20s my focus was all wrong and I never looked at things from a positive lenses.
I knew that my move to Chicago wouldn’t be the same for several reasons, but mostly because of my mentality, maturity, and tenacity. I have also become very content being alone, watching Netflix’s, reading and praying. Because I’ve found this inner peace and happiness. I knew moving to Chicago would be a breeze.
I am six weeks in and I have to say this city has grown on me. I currently live on the North side of the city in the most affluent area of Chicago. Not knowing anything about Chicago I had no idea of the socioeconomic status of my current place of residency. Everything was mostly based off of convenience and access to my specific housing requirements. The view from my apartment is amazing and I can see the lake and the Sears Tower. Every Wednesday and Saturday there are fireworks from the lake, which is a nice little bonus. Everything in my neighborhood is clean, safe and within walking distance.
I have also developed a small friends circle with people who are also MBA interns living in Chicago for the summer. This actually surprised me the most as I historically have shied away from making bonds with new people due to my anxieties and trust issues.
I have six more weeks left here and I intend to really enjoy every moment of it. I am so GRATEFUL to God allowing me this opportunity to move to a new city by myself and really push myself to flourish!
I have said it many times, business school is not EASY. It is not a decision that you can make over night and just decide that you want to get an MBA. You have to be dedicated to it and decide that you are going to do it no matter what. Before you apply there are a few things that you should know beforehand:
- Rankings Matter – you should try to go to a school that is within the top 50, and has a strong alumni base. You will realize that when you are seeking out internships and job offers that who you know will help you A LOT. Also, schools within the top 50 usually have strong connections with specific companies that hire from your school every year.
- You will be Rejected – It is just the way of the game! There is no way that you will be able to get everything the exact way that you want it. When I first entered into school I had a vision for myself and what my first year would look like. I thought I would obtain my internship at the first conference of the year and I would be on the first year board of many clubs….WRONG. I was appointed to no positions, and I didn’t get my internship until Christmas Break (this is still very early). I also made it to the final round of FACEBOOK and wasn’t selected as the intern. In addition to that the coursework was super hard and my interviewing prepare wasn’t going so well. I was disappointed and felt as though I was a failure and that this was all a sign that I should just quit.
- You have to bounce back quick – As much as you get rejected, you will have to learn how to bounce back and overcome. You really don’t have time to dwell on rejection and since things move so fast you have to just Keep It Moving (KIM). Not letting rejection to hold you down is the only thing that you can do. And just as quickly as I was getting rejected from FACEBOOK, I had to interview with another company a few days later. I couldn’t allow my disappointment to hold me back and I had to keep what happened in the past and go out an get it (which I did!). I also had to overcome the rejection from the first year and eventually get selected to be on the leadership boards for my second year! (all of which hold more weight than first year boards anyways).
- You will lose friends – Look Ima keep it real with you chief, not everyone will understand the wave that you are on. Not everyone will understand how IMPORTANT this is, and they will begin to feel some kind of way about you hanging out with new people and not having time to do the things that you use to do. This happened to me. From certain people feeling left behind, or that I wasn’t giving them the same amount of time as I was my business school friends (which you will learn, you are always with due to school being such a big part of your life), I had to let it go and keep it moving. The main reason being that I didn’t have the mental capacity to attempt to fix relationships with people who didn’t understand why I was in school. If they couldn’t understand why I had hit ghost and the fact that I was trying to change my life, then they couldn’t be in my circle any longer.
- This will be your whole life – Yes, I said it. Business school will consume you. Your whole world will be school. You will have fun too, don’t get me wrong, but you will always be thinking about school. On your off days you will be in school studying, working on papers and projects. You will be applying to internships, reaching out to alumni or doing career prep. You will be attending events, and helping to throw events. School will be apart of you, and you will become apart of school, so get mentally prepared to always being busy, and always have something being due.
With all that being said business school is soooooo worth it. Just the amount that I am getting paid during the summer is a great reminder of why I came back to school and what Im trying to accomplish in my life. If you feel as though you can dedicate two years to increase you earning potential for the rest of your life, then Business School is def for you!