Often times I find that we make these new years resolutions and we never actually revisit them after January. I wanted to look at what I wrote down as my New Years resolution for 2018 and see if I was able to stick with some of what I wrote down. This is not only a means of holding myself accountable but also a means of encouraging myself to stick on the path that I am on and work harder at things that I wrote down. So without further ado, lets get into it!
- No more self silencing – This was something that was directed towards one person in my life who use to make me feel really bad about expressing myself. He was constantly criticizing me and making it seem as though everything that came out of my mouth was WRONG or STUPID (which was really funny because he literally was a person that had not one pot to piss in). This is what caused me to self silence as a means to not offend this person. I never had this issue with anyone else. Long story short, it was HIM not ME, and my life has been way better ever since we have broken ties. So I do not self silence and I guess I technically never really did.
- No More Comparing – Sadly, this again ties into #1. This person made me feel so crappy about myself that I was CONSTANTLY comparing myself to other women. I got rid of his negativity and began comparing myself WAY LESS.
- Self Preservation – I think that this year I have done a better job of self preservation but I definitely can do better. One great thing that happened to me in the last quarter of the year was that I began drinking way less and started being a little bit more conscience and aware of what I was putting in my body. I also tried to be aware of what I was watching and listening to, because as you may or may not know, all of that can really have an affect on your everyday life. I also began going to church on a weekly basis and utilized the word as a means of mental renewal.
- Using Social Media Less – I think that I had spurts of when I was using it less, but definitely not where I want to be. If you know anything, then you should know that social media is a tool that can really kill ones spirit.
- No complaining, Positive Outlooks Only – I have gotten way better at this! I try to be more aware of what I am saying and how I am thinking in general. This has allowed me to be less depressed and really push through the hard times.
- Be more prepared – Last year I wrote this because school was a real struggle for me and I felt as though I was lacking, but in reality I am not this ill prepared person.
- Work Harder – This is something that everyone can try to better at year over year. Work harder than your hardest! I did do that this past year, and I plan on doing it again in 2019!
I had to take some time to really think about what my New Years resolution would be. Initially when I decided to write this post I was rushing to write down things and I found that my resolutions were somewhat cliche and unauthentic. So it took me 15 days into January to really figure out what I wanted to work on this year and how I want to improve in life. So here it is:
- No more self silencing – A lot of times I have self silenced myself in fear of what others may think or fear of hurting another persons feelings. This has caused a lot of issues in my life because I find myself doing things that I don’t necessarily want to do. Then I beat myself up for not speaking up.
- No More Comparing – This is something that I didn’t even realize that I did until I forced myself to sit back and take time to think about my flaws. I don’t think that most women would admit it (but I’m going to be real here), but I realized that this is something that I did so much that I didn’t even realize I was doing it.
- Self Preservation– I realized that this HAD to be on my list. I need to practice self preservation of my mind, body and soul. I want to do more to preserve my physical by eating healthier, drinking more water, and working out. I also want to make sure to do things like getting facials and focusing more on my hair health. I want to go to church more to feed my mind and soul. And take the time to sit, pray, be quiet, and meditate to feed my mental!
- Using Social Media Less – This ties in to my #2. I believe that with me going on social media and clicking on others pages and thinking negative comments about others, or thinking negative comments about myself, I am in turn doing more damage to myself than I realize. By forcing myself to use social media less, stay away from certain peoples pages (lets admit, we all go on peoples pages that we don’t follow and or even like), and spending more time and energy to improving myself will allow me to really improve in 2018.
- No complaining, Positive Outlooks Only – This is the key to living a better happy life, in my opinion. It will improve my daily mood, my daily outlook, and my overall success in life.
- Be more prepared – Being that I am in school, I need to get way better at being more prepared. I need to stop waiting until the last minute to study, to do assignments.
- Work Harder – I work hard but there is always room to work harder and nap less.
Being in business school full time and pursuing an MBA will make you realize how that nothing could have prepared you for the rigor of the course work and the time commitment that is associated with being in an MBA program. But, with all hurdles in life, I know that this too will one day come to an end and once I have the letters MBA next to my name I know that all of the late nights, early mornings, meetings, applications to internships, corporate events, networking happy hours, assignments, tests, study sessions, and lack of sleep….will all be worth it.
The one thing I would say that I do feel guilty about is the lack of time that I have to communicate with my old friends and family members that are not my immediate family (even my immediate family get very minimal time with me now). But other than the course rigors, late nights, and always being busy, business school is SO MUCH FUN. I mean, how can it not be???? You are introduced to a whole new set of people who, for the most part, have the same ambitions and thinking as you, who are in the same space as life as you are, and who are eager to learn and make new connections as you are. I mean honestly, we work hard and play hard within my program. But, I mean how could we not??? The amount of stress that we face each day is crazy and by the time our last class is completed on Thursday evening we are just ready to unwind with usually a little wine, good music, and each others company lol!
In all, I’ve told several people that business school is not for everyone nor is it for the faint of hearts (and please understand that not all business schools are the same so if you are attending an unranked school then you probably can’t relate). But if you want to attend just be mentally prepared for everything that comes with it. Don’t give up and just keep pushing.
Pursuing an MBA is one hardest things that I have done thus far in my life. It is difficult to jump back into school The last time I was in school was in 2011, and at the end of 2016 I decided that I wanted to apply to business school. I wanted to transition out of my previous career in advertising sales and work in an industry that would allow me to better use my skills in strategy and marketing.
Fast forward nine months after I was accepted into business school and I have just completed my first month. Things have been extremely hard but with every passing week things get easier. What do I mean? Well in my first week of school I was extremely overwhelmed with the amount of work that we were given right away. I unwisely thought of my undergraduate days when the first week of school was usually the easiest out of the year. WRONG. It was tough, and the professors made sure to dive in face first into the course work. The first week of school I began to doubt my decision of going back to school. I began to think that the coursework was too rigorous and that there was no way that I would be able to do it. From group meetings, to workshops, to internship searches, I felt as though I had a lot on my plate.
But as the weeks have gone by things have gotten progressively easier. What happened??? My busy schedule has not changed at all, if anything, I am more busy than I was in week one. What has changed is my ability to manage my time, utilizing all the resources that my business school has to offer and my ability to push full steam ahead. The reality of it is that getting your MBA is not meant to be easy, if it was everyone would have one.
I know that the remainder of my time here will not be easy. I know that I will have to stay up many late nights, and will have to sacrifice a lot of my free time to get to my end goal. But it is comforting to know that no matter where I land after I graduate that I will be fully prepared.
Nothing that I have done thus far could have prepared me mentally, emotionally, and physically for business school. I knew that school was going to be hard, but I could not have imagined that in the first week it would be this hard.
Usually the first week of school tends to be slow and easy but business school is quite the opposite. Rather, we were thrown right in with out a life raft. I know you are probably thinking that I am being dramatic, but I really am not. That is how I and many other students feel. Everyday in the first week I was going to sleep past 12am because I was doing homework and studying. And even though I have been putting in work, it is not nearly as much as I need to be doing.
I am realizing that business school is like a never ending race that no matter how far you think you have gotten there is way more running to do. Each time that I had completed one task there was a classmate telling me that there were ten other things left to do.
Although the first week was insanely overwhelming, it has made me realize that I need to step it up and hunker down and do whatever it takes. Luckily for me I don’t have classes Fridays and this weekend is Labor Day so I am using this time as a reset to organize all my schoolwork, reply to the thousand emails the that I have and be ready to start fresh come Tuesday.
“Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”
– Harriet Stowe